On Full Communion...

James 2:9-10 For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it"

I have been asked, “Why Rachael does it matter that I’m Catholic if I’m already Christian? Isn’t that good enough?”

Whether something is good enough or the absolute right thing are very different things and lead to completely different outcomes.

We read in James that showing partiality fails the true test of our Faith in that purposeful division in the Body is a failure to demonstrate what our Faith is made for in the Body—that if we are not unified in our posture towards one another, we have lost the whole meaning of what Christ came to do—to make us One in the Spirit as precious sons and daughters of the Living God.

To have one people over here worshipping differently because we like these people best, then another over there because we don’t like their style over there at that church, then another because we don’t like that pastor, then another because we like that pastor, AND MOST OF ALL then another people at their church worshipping while hating those whom protestants love to disdain the most-namely THOSE CATHOLICS—HOW CAN WE CALL THIS CHRISTIAN UNITY AND CHRISTIAN CHARITY IN THE BODY OF CHRIST? You call this good enough? You call this what Jesus desires for His Baptized people? What is the absolute RIGHT thing in regards to the Body of Christ? But to be indifferent towards one another is to destroy the whole body. Loving one part while disliking the others—-how is this what the Lord wants?

Full communion is the sum of total unity——the Body of Christ made whole in true Church of Jesus Christ—not through our work but through the merits of His Passion, death and resurrection, that we made me made one in the Spirit.

So, is it right to be have a baptized people in one church and then have another baptized people doing their own thing over there, divided peoples, who show partiality to one another, or it is right to have no partiality by being in but one Church, that worships the same and does not divide itself based on people, pastors, music, teaching and worship? To have but one Faith——is this not what Christ came to do? Do you deny this? If you think it’s good enough to belong to separate churches divided by teachings and people and what you like versus what they like, do you not show partiality?

That we belong to ONE CHURCH, WITH ONE FAITH, ONE BAPTISM, THE SAME TEACHINGS, ONE SHEPHERD, THAT WE ARE BUT ONE FLOCK, IN FULL COMMUNION WITH ONE ANOTHER—this is the Christian call of Christ.

If you are not in full communion, you will be judged on this and woe to you for the mercy you have shown to the other Christians-this will be delt to you.

It was 2023 spring. I was during my morning prayers kneeling on my bedroom floor. Suddenly as my eyes were already shut, I saw that I was up in the sky looking down at an old grey brick church when a priest immerged through the two wooden front doors. He was holding in his hands the holy monstrance. He walked to the edge of the top steps and brought the holy monstrance upward towards the sky and with it made the sign of the cross as if blessing the skies. When he was done blessing the sky, the vision ended and I was back in my room.

Forgive me Lord today for any lack of charity towards my protestant brothers and sisters; for what good is it if in the process of defending Your Church, I offend You?

On the early Martyrs...

If I die for any faith, let it be for the Catholic Faith for I have been told I would make a good protestant but to be a good protestant would mean to deny the early church martyrs and that would mean I must also deny the deaths by which they testified: being sawed in half, burned alive, tortured, starved to death, thrown to lions, ripped apart by devices, boiled, beheaded. And the Lord has shown me the holy Martyrs, arms upraised and singing songs to the Triune Holy One, whose robes were made of Light, the Light that indeed comes from the Lamb Who sits on the Throne of the Golden City, the House of the Most High God, which the Lord also has shown me, but the Church is the beacon through which that Light shines. And so that is the Church I want to die for, the Catholic Church, for many will be shocked when they die that that is the Church they denied.

On Joy....

I used to cry tears of shame and guilt, but God turned them into tears of joy. God took my attitude of shame and turned it into an attitude of gratitude. That’s a big difference. And here is where we learn how to deal with healing. How can I have a spirit of Joy instead of a spirit of shame and self-loathing over my past? There’s a difference there in pride verses humility, in attitudes, in a reliance on God’s strength verses mine own. Let me explain.

When I used to cry thinking about my past, I was guilt-ridden and I would say to God, “Heal me.” But I would still be weeping over my past, how broken I was, and so God could not use me because there was a wall there-the will had not yet let go for God to take over. I was essentially saying, ‘“I don’t believe You the Maker of the Universe can purify this.” Not because of my tears, but because of my attitude. My attitude was attached to feelings that inhibited God from using me in His Kingdom work even though I wanted to be used. He simply could not use me. My attitude was one of pridefulness not humility. I had not approached God like a child even though I felt my prayer sincere.

When I began praying, “Jesus, immerse me in Your ocean of mercy”, “Jesus I trust in Your mercy”, Jesus "by your wounds I am healed”, and reciting those profound words from the Anime Christi, “into Your Wounds I hide”, and for years I did this, even though I did not fully believe what I was saying, God began using this humility to give me a different attitude. I didn’t know it at the time that this was happening, but slowly over time, which is how grace works often times more than not although there are exceptions, my attitude became one of gratitude so now tears that weep over my past are not from my prideful attachment to shame and guilt but from a humble heart of gratefulness for the powerful Blood of Jesus Christ shed on Calvary. I weep tears of Joy because I have an attitude of gratitude which God Himself gave to me.

I am still human so when the pain immerges from my past I simply go to the Cross and look at that glorious crucifix and say “Even this, Lord, even this, glorify this.”

I come with joy a child of God.

So when you approach Jesus for healing, you are not purified because you are ready, you are purified because of His powerful redemptive Blood poured out for you. Humble yourself before Him. Amen, come Lord Jesus.

IT was April 2025. I was in a dream like state I was laying in bed in the middle of night half awake when I saw before me a desolate place, the sky was a dark red, it looked like day but the sky was a very dark red, there was destruction everywhere, and demons were flying around, people were screaming and crying, I couldn’t tell if the demons were causing the pain or other people because it seemed that people were also involved in doing terrible acts of violence on people but influenced by the demons who were flying around as though they were winning and feeling very victorious in what they were doing. They were hideous in appearance and flying everywhere. It was a horrible sight and very scary. It was terrifying. There were children crying and screaming and I saw a woman weeping over her child near me sitting there beside what looked like the remains of a tree now a stump. I couldn’t make out where I was. It just looked like the whole land was a wasteland and there was no trees or greenery or houses. It looked like everything had been destroyed. There was black smoke coming out of the earth from various parts of the ground. There were no houses just nothing.
Then I saw a flash of white and suddenly the whole scene changed to a completely different place-there were people of all ages standing before me in white robes with their arms raised and singing a song which I couldn't make out and I could not see their faces; the place was ethereal and didn’t seem like it was here. The people in robes were made of light and it was as if their source of their illumination was from their beauty. They were so beautiful you didn’t want to look away. Their beauty was an immersion with Love itself. It was a most incredible sight. The complete contrast to earlier. I did not want to leave. I could not make out their song but somehow I knew it was beautiful. I wanted to remain there forever. I was drawn to the people in the white robes whose robes once again were made of light which was the source of their beauty.
Then there was a light so bright before me like the greatest sun light flashed in my face and I saw I was in my room staring into the room and I was out of breath because the whole thing was so intense. I am not sure the meaning of this.

On Sacrifice...

“Rach you’ve changed…” I ‘ve heard people say to me. And this is because the Lord hit me with a ton of bricks and once you see the Truth, you can’t unsee it, you can’t unknow it, and what it does is it forces you to change.

What the Lord revealed to me was His divine love for me, but not in a way that you would think, “God loves me therefore I’m perfect the way I am”, but rather “God loves me therefore something great is required of me because of this love.” And that “something great” is sacrifice. My one English teacher in HS used to say that word so much. It was like he had just discovered this word and was fanatical about it, or maybe he was going through a change of heart himself and was understanding what it means to follow the Lord: he saw the Truth and couldn't unsee it.

We all know that when we give something away, it makes us feel good inside. We’ve all experienced this feeling. It can be addicting even, filling a need deep within. What this is is fulfilling something inside of us that satisfies us because we were always called to a greater good, and what that actually requires is sacrifice. It would seem like I’m contradicting myself to say the act of giving away satisfies us while simultaneously lays ourselves down, in that, in the act of giving something away, we destroy some part of the ego, the self. And this is sacrifice: a death to self.

When you look at the evil in the world, the hatred in the world, the murders, the anger, the power, the greed, the abuse, the wars, you ask yourself, “But what can stop this?” And the answer is this: goodness comes only when sacrifice is made such that when you see people doing good in the world, it is only because and can only be because a sacrifice was made somewhere. Giving something away had to happen for a good thing to exist.

And so it not in loving ourselves that good things happen. It is in giving away something of and/or in ourselves that brings about a good. And this is sacrifice. So when Truth is revealed to you, you are asked to serve either the greater good or the lesser good that is yourself. And in making that choice, you can either perpetuate evil or perpetuate goodness. If you choose the latter, you will change. You will be different and over time, people will notice and they might say to you “You’ve changed.”Because some part of you has died as it must so that the void in that death may be filled with the life of grace that you were created for.

This is the Christian life. The burden that is ours as mortals is this: that we lay ourselves down over and over and over again until we take our last breath. And when we have been purified by the Fire of Grace, then shall we be FULLY changed to satisfy the Divine Justice and Righteousness of our Master, praise be Jesus Christ.

On my Mighty Jesus...

I prayed one night very very fervently, “Jesus, please do not send any more demons; I don’t think I am strong enough now.” (since the attacks were happening more frequently-once a week-and disrupting my sleep very badly)

I heard and saw the word “Penance.” and I accepted this but still very unsatisfied that I could be strong enough. Then as my eyes were closed in prayer I saw Jesus standing before a great light as I could see a city of Gold behind Him where He had come down a staircase through a doorway. His robe was covered in light but not so that His Face was revealed to me as the light behind Him was so bright it cast a shadow on His Face so I could only see a silhouette ( because I was not permitted to see His Holy Face). There was two shorter figures in robes on either side on Him whose faces I could not see either (because I was not permitted). I took them to be angels. When I saw Him, I felt a force of power emanating forth from His stature which was shone to be very large (since the angel figures were much shorter) but also because of the power I felt coming from Him. Suddenly I could feel my Mighty Jesus, the Lion of Judah, how could I be afraid? How could I feel weak with my Mighty Jesus? I knew of HIs might and His power, I knew Jesus would be with me and my strength which would come from Him is a might of heaven. For it is written, “You will not fear the terror of the night, nor the arrow that flies by day” Psalm 91:5. And i began to cry because I knew instantly that I had failed, I had not trusted Him. “I’m so sorry, Lord.” I said.

On spirituality...

To console Jesus: this is my heart’s desire now. For now I want only to save souls and many souls are damned which hurts Jesus, so my heart hurts too. I go in prayer to console Jesus. I know too what my sin has done to Him and what pian it has caused Him and my soul is so saddened by this I cannot help but cry every time I think of it. Even when I’m eating or playing or reading or anytime, the moment I think of it, I cry, because I love my Jesus. I love Him.

On Sickness and Injury..

I had never thought of sickness before until recently as a form of spiritual warfare. But upon Joseph’s recent seizure (during VBS week in July), it came to me that any act of the body defending itself is an act of offense against the body and therefore an attack on the body. And as I had made the point earlier in a blog post that the mortal nature is intrinsic to the spiritual nature which together make up our whole being, any physical attack on the body is also a spiritual attack on the body and soul.

Most people view sickness and injury as just an ordinary part of our lives but if you look theologically you will see that sickness and injury are nothing short of spiritual warfare since the Angel of Darkness loves our sorrow and anguish. He loves suffering because he knows what it is—-it is a result of sin and death that entered this world from our first parents, from the first Fall, the pit of pride, the greatest vice that separates us from God and His eternal love.

Sickness and injury is an attempt to destroy the body which in itself is a machine. But this machine is uniquely intertwined with the spirit and the soul which give it life eternally in spite of the mortal nature. The two natures-spirit and mortal—are our identity as children of God and God made everything good. The body, made in His image, by the glorious Incarnation which shows us just how good it is, is also something most hated by our Enemy. Because all sickness and injury are a result of sin and death—sickness and injury are outward signs of our fallen nature. These signs glorify the Enemy. They make him feel triumphant even for just a moment.

This is also why redemptive suffering flips the power of the Enemy unto Jesus-because when we crucify sickness and injury to the holy Cross, we reverse the glory unto God. How important then it is to sings song of praise and worship when we are sick and injured because it drives the Enemy nuts! Therefore, immediately when you are attacked with sickness or injury, rejoice in the Lord aloud—verbally rejoice in the Lord—-let the Enemy hear you—-look up tot he heavens and glorify aloud. Make the enemy know where you stand.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!” Philippians 4:4

On being mortal Part 2...

Oftentimes I think people believe their prayer life a separate entity from their physical actions, that is, all things they participate in throughout their daily living. And yes, indeed we need to set aside time for a verbal prayer, but that is because of our mortal nature as I will explain which is intrinsic to our spiritual life.

Just as the angels have a mission, each one of them, in their nature being spirit, we have a mission in our mortal form. We are not unlike the angels that we have a mission, except we have two forms-mortal and spirit, thus we have each a mission that is physical and spiritual. The physical aspect of our mission is embedded in our mortal form.

We often do not see it that way but as separate because we view heavenly things as far off and not within our reach or not present here. But our Christian Faith teaches us that Jesus’ death and resurrection unites those things of heaven to those of earth. Thus through our Baptism, it follows that our body, or mortal form, has been anointed and thus it follows that so too then all our physical actions can be anointed when we unite them to the action of God’s grace through the divine life of the Holy Spirit alive in us.

Therefore, when united to the Holy Spirit, all our physical actions can be a prayer or glorified offering to our God not sperate from our prayer life but rather one with it as all our actions can be united to Divinity itself through our mortal nature.

Like the angels who have united all their spiritual actions to God as to glorify Him or else they perish, our mortal nature can also be wholly united to God’s glory, all one action really, and thus becomes our prayer life as well, a constant communion to the Holy Spirit by His grace working through us. This is what is meant by “mission”, whatever your vocation is, your mission is tied to your vocation, all the physical actions required of your daily living. And it is these things that can be one with your prayer life, because your mortal nature has been anointed through Baptism, your mortal nature which is one also with your spiritual life.

So then if all your actions are anointed, it follows that all these things give glory to God, but you must as St. Paul says cooperate with God’s grace since the anointing of these things comes from the Holy Spirit’s Life in us. Your mortal nature gives glory to God in this constant union with Hs Divine Life. Glory to God for our mortal nature! In Him, our mortality has redemptive properties, thanks be to God.

On prayer...

How do you pray? What do you say? What does it look like? How is it supposed to feel? Should I kneel? Should my hands be folded? Should there be a holy image or object present?

Good questions. So what? How do you know what prayer ought to look and sound like?

A soul united to God in prayer is totally enraptured and consumed into the Divine Presence of the Holy One, Whose attitude towards His little creature is sincerely enraptured and consumed in turn with her! God withholds NOTHING. God’s very nature cannot allow it. Therefore, to the one asking “What does prayer look like? What does prayer sound like?” I say, prayer holds nothing back. Anger, sorrow, self-pity, pain, joy, peace, delight…what other human emotion is there? Whatever it is you are feeling, say that. Whatever it is you are feeling, do that. Do you feel like kneeling? Do that. Do you feel like sitting? Do that. Do you feel like folding your hands? Do that. Do you feel like singing? Prostrating? Crying? Saying nothing? Do that. The Holy Spirit will direct you when you humble yourself in prayer. The Holy Spirit will tell you. It will not be a voice necessarily, although it might be. The body when uniting itself to the Spirit just knows. And the more you pray, the more you will know what the Lord needs from you in this world as far as your petitions and your prayers are concerned.

Let me tell you that I have heard a voice that commanded me to do what God wanted me to do in prayer. Two times. The first was during Mass while I was playing the communion hymn in 2017. My eyes were looking down at the keyboard as I was playing and singing. The youth choir was singing just next to me. And I heard, “Look up.” When I looked up, I saw a white wind enter through the side doors of the church directly ahead of me. The white wind was loud and sounded like a great wind storm. I thought to myself, “My papers are going to fly everywhere.” When the wind came to me, I felt a great wind storm envelop around me but my papers and hair did not fly all over. Instead I felt in the wind an ecstasy of love, peace and joy. I closed my eyes and I felt my piano bench teeter-totter slightly off the ground so I looked down to see if my feet were still touching the pedal and I could see my toes were so I wasn’t far off the ground and then the wind went right back out the door from which it came.

In 2018, I was washing dishes in my old apartment. Joey and my son were gone on an outing. I looked up from the dishes and saw the white wind come through my kitchen side glass doors and again, I heard a loud wind storm and felt it blowing but nothing moved. It blew over the counter to me and enveloped around me, love, peace, joy. Then I felt hands on my shoulders pushing me down. I thought in my head, “If I kneel and someone walks in they’re going to think I’m crazy.” And it was not a voice a heard, rather I saw in front of me but also in my mind the words, “OBEDIENCE.” I knelt down, and out of my mouth I shouted, “John Paul, pray for us!” Then the wind left me through the kitchen door from which it came. I had been praying to John Paul for two weeks everyday for GSCC. It was an affirmation.

The Holy Spirit told me what to do in prayer literally on both occasions, between “look up” and “obedience”, but this is not always the case so I tell you, just pray the way wish to express yourself to God and He will correct you if He wants so don’t worry. If He wants to tell you something, He will.

“Perfect submission, perfect delight…this is my story…” let that be yours.

Many people accuse Christians of knowing with certainty because of their belief in God. But those that accuse Christians of this themselves claim that we must be uncertain. How can we be certain we are uncertain? Most scientists agree the universe had a beginning and most scientists agree the universe has order and intelligent design. So where is this God they ask? Look at all the evil in the world, they say, how can a God you claim to be so good allow such evils? There is no God, they say, because we cannot see Him. And Christians know that we are the Mystical Body of Christ and therefore when people see us they are to see God. We are the face of God, we are the hands of God, we are the feet of God. But so many Christians are walking around today asking for healing before they can serve, “Lord heal me!” And this is their sickness: never serving because they feel inadequate until they know for certain they have been healed. They worry and they are anxious. But does the Face of God droop with worry? Are the hands of God idle? Are the feet of God complacent? No! The face of God is Light: the Light of truth, of Justice, of Righteousness, of Mercy, of Holiness. The hands of God create all things out of nothing. The feet of God are the good Father Who runs to the prodigal son. We who deny Jesus also deny the world His love and mercy and therefore we deny the world the God they are so uncertain about.

Do not be arrogant in your weakness. Who can know the mind of God? Humble yourself. Submit. Say, “Here I am, Lord, send me!” and do not worry how God will use you because with God all things are possible. God is in control.

On Living

I feel as though God has consumed me. And I am wholly His.

I am here by His grace, sustained by His very Body and Blood; His grace uplifts me, His grace undoes me and “my soul magnifies the Lord.” Luke 1:46. I listen and obey the Spirit of Truth, the Spirit of Charity, the Spirit of Justice, the Spirit of mercy, the Spirit of righteousness, the Spirit of Wisdom, the Spirit of holiness, because it is good and right to do so, because there is no other recourse.

A Messenger of Peace

It was summer of 2023. I had been in and out of the ER for what felt like heart attack symptoms for several weeks—heart racing, chest pain, jaw pain, black outs, arrhythmias…I wore a heart monitor even. I thought that maybe I was getting Lupus and it had effected my heart. I was about to go to Rochestor to seek more medical advice on what was going on. I could’t live anymore in this condition; it was agony, day after day, torment to live in a state of this kind of fragility. I was scared and baffled. What was going on?

One week was the absolute worse. I couldn’t sleep. I was being tortured-would I ever have a normal life again? It was a hot July night. I went to sleep alone to not disturb everyone being up all night. I prayed intensely, meditating on Psalm 23 and Psalm 18. Finally in my vulnerability, I gave over my soul to the Abba, ‘Father, I surrender my body over to You.” I prayed over my husband and children. I prayed as though I was going to leave this earth, raying over my family and blessings. Then I ended my prayer by asking the Abba for comfort, “Please send me comfort Father,” I prayed, begging the Abba to at least send me comfort. I felt like all of me was being tortured.

Well, somehow I had fallen asleep, which was very hard to do because my heart would wake me up, but this time I woke because I felt a presence very near to my bed and I woke to see who it was. When I opened my eyes, my light was still on and I saw on the right side of my bed up in the air about 5 feet off the ground was a glowing orb within another glowing orb. It was a white light, very bright, and from this light was emitting peace, a peace so intense. But it’s important to note it was different from the peace of the Holy Wind I had experienced before. It was just peace.

I sat up and reached for it but it moved away. I reached again, it moved again; the 3rd time I reached for it it went through my wall and was gone. It was then I realized the Lord had answered my prayer and sent me comfort as I had asked.

On the Glory Be

My favorite recited prayer is the Glory Be. There are no better words that a soul can utter beyond the words of this prayer-”Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit…” To exalt the Triune God. Because God is Holy. Each Person of the Trinity is distinct from the Other, Each deserving of praise, Each deserving our worship and adoration. This prayer mimics that of the angels who said “Holy, Holy, Holy…” Recite this prayer often. Make it a habit to recite it at morning and at night. Recite it intensely, bowing down for each Person.

On Trust

I feel like I have one foot in heaven and one foot on earth. That’s because Heaven is not far from here: It is not far from the soul who trusts completely in the Father’s wisdom; it is not far from the soul who loves the heart of Jesus, Mary and Joseph; it is not far from the soul who loves Holy Mother Church; it is not far from the soul who loves His Word and devours it all day like food; it is not far from the soul who prays unceasingly like St. Paul says, because it trusts in His mercy and hopes in His promises-

“Blessed are the poor in spirit,
    for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
    for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
    for they will inherit the earth.

 Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
    for they will be filled.
 Blessed are the merciful,
    for they will be shown mercy.
 Blessed are the pure in heart,
    for they will see God.
 Blessed are the peacemakers,
    for they will be called children of God.
 Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
    for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.”

The Abba loves you, the Father loves you. I cry writing this because so few know this. It is has become a childish, almost immature saying and is used to legitimize unholy behavior and unholy attitudes towards one another. Culture’s theft of this phrase “God loves you” means “do as you wish” but this is so wrong! He is Almighty, Ancient of Days, Holy holy holy is He. No one knowing God would dare object to His majesty except to serve the ego and that is evil and so humility is saying this—I trust in You, Abba! I am totally yours! Submission to the holy, submission to His justice, submission to His wisdom, submission to His love, total love.

Do not be arrogant. Say this repeatedly, and even when you have wronged someone or God, say this, “I trust in You, Abba!” Even your shame, even your guilt, even your arrogance, God can remove all stains, God can remove all wickedness in you, God can remove your impurities. He cannot work in a soul however who does not ask Him to do this. He will purify you. And Justice demands this eventually. So work it out now while you have one foot on earth and one foot in heaven.

On Total Surrender

Why is total surrender necessary? Why does it matter? Why can’t we love holy lives, attend church, read the scriptures, pray…why does it matter whether we yield our wills completely, that we say over and over again and mean it over and over again, “TAKE MY WILL.” Is not simply living the Christian life good enough?

What is the will? The will is intrinsic to not only our mortal nature, but to our human dignity which is a characteristic of our souls. God in His goodness, being so good, respects the very thing that He implanted in each human being, human dignity, the very thing that is totally necessary to true inner peace, joy and charity, Christian authenticity, and is directly linked to who a person is as a child of God.

It is our free will that provides human dignity. We have human dignity as we are made in His image, that’s why it’s there. Unless man reviles it, everyone possesses it. Tis is also why people who feel they have lost their dignity feel despair and even leads them to suicide. The will is free and it is the will that either therefore protects or destroys human dignity.

This is why sexual sins and sexual abuse are actually a death to human dignity because human sexuality is absolutely one with our mortal nature and therefore our souls and any violation that is in opposition to God’s plan for human sexuality is a death jab to one’s human dignity. Once one’s human dignity is eroded or gone entirely, only God can restore it because God alone has given it to the human person.

And so the will is in charge of who we are as children of God: we can either be children of the Light or children of darkness. Only God knows the totality of what our souls need, what is lacking, only He can see what is to come in our lives, only He knows how we got to where we are, and where it is we are going. God cannot do anything without our consent. Otherwise this would violate our human dignity and corrupt us as children of God, and so He cannot do this because it would violate Himself since God is Light and we are from the Light and this is who we are.

So total consent=total surrender. And this allows God to work grace into our lives where we may not understand, where we may not even know we need it because of our pride which is tied to our wills. That is why it is difficult to surrender, it is a fight to relent, but total surrender=total freedom, which sounds contradictory. “How can handing myself over be anything but slavery? I am in control. “ No. Control is tension. Control is rigidity. Movement, flexibility-THAT IS FREEDOM-God Who is all-knowing, all-powerful, all-loving, it is handing ourselves completely over to Him that we find peace and contentment in who we are, what we’re doing, why we’re doing it, where we’re going. This is freedom.

Total surrender, this is hard. It may take many trials, it may take much much pain. This is a fight between our will and God’s will. Pray. Do not merely say, “I trust in You.” But “I am Yours, tutus tutus.”

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On the Importance of a Church Community...

I pity the person who has no one to pray for for their soul.

The Church, however bleak it may be in terms of spiritual deprivation, is still the only place of refuge for the human soul on earth, where despite human kind’s sinful nature, a person can always find there grace through the prayers and works of Her members, the Body of Christ. There the soul is saved through the Holy Mass and the other Sacraments, and deeply edified through the spiritual efforts of the priest and lay people.

This is why merely belonging to a Catholic church community is not only important, it is VITAL. A person’s soul depends on it and the life of one’s soul is the work of glorification to the Holy Trinity for it is through the soul that God’s life either indwells or cannot indwell.

The purification of the soul of course is not due to the work of man, that is the Church, but rather by merit of the death and resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ, Who is the Head of the Church. But by the Holy Spirit, God allows man’s good deeds and prayers to benefit the soul’s spiritual needs.

When we gather at Holy Mass or any event at our local parish in which we are praying together, no matter how inadequate the local church’s members may be in terms of spiritual gifts or grace, God nonetheless works through them because He is good, He is sooo good that even in our moral weakness, He uses us.

Let God use you. Do not insist on your weakness, but insist on trusting Him for the Holy Spirit’s mission He has planned for your life. Do not hold back for when you do this, you not only deprive yourself, but the whole Church.

"Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silence"-on being mortal

The mortal flesh—-it came to me a few days ago—I had the realization of the meaning and significance of our being mortal and how we fit in with the spiritual, the oneness of the mortal world and that of the supernatural world, the two realms, the two beings, two natures; both have eternal souls, but one is flesh and one is spirit only. Two natures, but BOTH are called to be in the oneness of God the Father; two natures, but BOTH are created to glorify and to be glorified through Him by His life in us. And this is why fallen angels can exist. And this is why man who is also fallen exists. Both angels and mortals have free will and they can choose to serve the Father or themselves.

The demons hate the flesh. They hate the angels too, but it is a curiosity that I never figured out until now to understand why they hate the flesh so much if angels are “superior” to us that they should spend so much effort caring about us. If man’s body were not so good as the angels, if it were not so good to be mortal than to be spirit, what is it about the mortal that drives the demons bonkers?

They hate mortals so much they will do everything within their power to desecrate the body, to pervert the body’s normal functions. They love disease and death. The crave to see us sick and broken. They laugh when we are weak in our human flesh, when our bodies break. They especially love sexual pervertedness because they understand that our sexuality is our identity in the flesh, male and female He created us, so gender confusion and gender mutilation is the greatest evil against the human flesh.

This is because we are MORTAL. It is our NATURE. And the very nature of the mortal is not a lesser form of being than that of the angels but rather is EQUAL to that of the angels. Henceforth, the Incarnation is proof in the glory of the earthly body, the mortal, wed to the heavenly realm, that is unified to the life of the Father, is good and meant to co-exist. Thus Jesus rose from the dead BODY and soul. He has TWO NATURES-God and Man. The two natures can and ultimately will co-exist at the final Coming.

Finally, MORTALS, SPIRITS and ANGELS—-this is why the Church Militant, the Church Suffering and the Church Triumphant, are called to the same mission and the same life through our Lord Jesus Christ Who has unified heaven and earth once again. Not one has a greater significance than the other—angel or mortal—they are our equals.

Think of it like this-you could have been born an angel but you were born a mortal. This is not a lesser nature, it’s merely a different nature.

So now when you read to care for the “temple” the body, you can understand this because the body is a holy nature.